Friday, June 11, 2010

Home?

Last Friday, I reached Pune, and said I am home.
Today, the Friday after that one, I am leaving for San Francisco, saying I am going home.

Where is home? Where the heart is, right? But where is your home when half your heart is in Pune and the other half in San Francisco?

Not sure why I decided to move to the US...I think because that's what everyone else was doing. To anyone who is considering moving just for the heck of it (like me), don't do it! It is very hard to leave when you see your mom sitting like a frail rag doll, who you can't hug tight to say bye...fearing that her recently sewn together chest might crack open again. And it is very hard to stay when you know your husband is all alone at home, waiting for that 5 minute phone call every day.

So if you don't have to do it, don't split your heart into two like this!

11 comments:

Rià said...

Can totally understand ur dilemma!! But tell me is their any way out that u can think of?

I am said...

:( sad..how is your mom now ?

Anonymous said...

You must have reached safely by now ? 22 hours right ?

You moved for the heck of it ?

Aisa kyu lag raha hai aapko abhi.. Anyway, aise bahut din bad who bhi s tarah se trip mara hai to jyada lag raha hoga.. Wapis pahunch ke kaam me busy ho jaoge to it'll pass away.. It'll be the same once again, I hope.

Love without attachment is always light.. but then, its beyond our control, the attachment part... Life would be easier if it was..


Take Care Masi... Hugs! :D

Anonymous said...

did you get the comment, my connection got cut just as I clicked post... but on reconnecting it shows comment saved..

Preeti said...

Thanks for giving me the heads up on what's in store for me..... :-/ I just wished i didnt have to do it........

aneri_masi said...

Ria, for me there is no way out.

Tanu, she is ok now.

Samby, hmm...ok, not for the heck of it, lets say I followed someone. Coming here was not my original idea, I could very well have stayed back.
Thanks for your comment, achha laga :)

Preeti, you HAVE to do it? Ok, then do try to come back after you are done with your studies

Cinderella said...

And this is precisely why I have never ever wanted to leave home. It might be a colorful world out there, but I have only one mom and one dad.

Okay this might not help. But what I think will help is, you couldn't have stayed at your parents place forever anyway, kahi toh jaati na job k liye ya family k liye. Plus like Samby says, kaam me busy ho jaogi then you'll be fine and happy.

Smile!
hugs :*

P said...

aww this made me sad for my parents and feel helpless too :(
Hope your mom is doing well. As others have said above, staying busy helps recovering from homesickness..and then there is cheap telephone and internet these days. So cheer up!

Pri said...

i can imagine how difficult it is to make such decisions...

hope your mom turns fit and fine soon..so that she can come visit you!!
that should stich the heart back in place :)

Mysterious Mia said...

hey hey i had no clue abt this, is yur mom doing alright eh?

hugs babes....

A said...

this was a sad one...your mom had a surgery recently? I read it just now...hope she is fine now... and u too...