Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Don't talk to me, I'll bite your head off!

Am in a terrible terrible terrible mood.

I have just ONE dream in my life...to travel, and I see that going down the drain :(
I feel stuck. Day in and day out, doing the same old stupid living.
Wake up, get dressed, go to work, come home, water the stupid plants, cook the same old rotis and sabzis with onions and garlic, and sleep.
Weekday or weekend, doesn't matter. Stay within the same walls of the house. Yeah, its a pretty house. So? Yeah, the flowers make me feel happy, so I should take care of them, yeah, yeah, yeah, I know. But SO??? SO WHAT??? I wanna go OUT! AWAY! To a new place!
I HATE THIS MONOTONY! I feel like screaming my head off...at no one in particular.

Yeah, yeah, there are others less fortunate than me, so? Just coz I have almost everything a person could ever want, doesn't mean, I still can't dream, and hope to fulfill it and all.

Don't bother with comments, people, I am not going to reply to any of them.
Don't bother asking my why, I won't reply, am in no mood to talk, or vent, or anything.
Just want to be left alone today. Wish I could just disappear...into thin air...just like that...
pooofffff......

Don't try to find me, I'll come back when I feel like!


Well...there was this other thing...I am sponsoring two girls through Asha...
One of 'em got 75% in her 4th semester in engineering. That's more than I ever got!
Good job, MichaelRani :)

And the other one is in the 10th class. She got marks like 11/100, 24/100. Oh well, she must have some other problems going on. I won't judge her! She's going to school and thats more than I can ask for! Good job, Mubeena :)

Ok, talking about the two kids makes me a feel a little bit better. But just a little bit, so don't try to talk to me. Not yet!

I'll come back when I feel nice again!

UPDATE:
Ok, now you can comment, but can ask only about the two girls I am sponsoring.

40 comments:

Pavi!!!! said...

Hmmm..Hmmm... Cheer up gurl..think of ur wonderful B'day dinner!

n plan ur nxt vaccation (which cld be in Dec for all u know)..but u'll be xcited abt it!

so tell me more abt the gurls, Asha and the adoption process?

aneri_masi said...

@pavi, nope, not planning anything. It just disappoints me in the end.
There's two girls I am sponsoring through Asha right now. One is MichaelRani, in chennai. She's the one in engineering. Been sponsoring her for two years now, since my previous kid passed out from college. She seems to be doing well.

The other one is Mubeena, lives in Kupwara...this is near the war-torn area of kargil, drass and batalik. She lives in an orphanage called Basera-e-Tabassum, specially for girls, hopefully she is safe and well-cared for there. She wants to be a teacher!

The process is quite simple, you go to the Asha website, look over all the projects they have, fill in the specifics of the child you would like to sponsor (girl/boy, age range, geographical region, etc). They are pretty prompt in assigning you a kid, takes a couple days max.

Here's a link to their projects:
http://www.ashanet.org/siliconvalley/projects.html

Ankur said...

oyeee... aapki 2 girls hai... sweet :)

waise koi na, dekho main toh bachpan se hi padhne ko bura manta aya hoon, kya farq padta hai kitni percentage laoo, insaan toh ban nahi sakte hai na usse... so its better to be a good human being, aap dono ladkiyon ko gud human being banao aapki jaise... :)

and specially abt the second one, aap pata karo na ki usse kya problems hai... those seems low marks, apna toh ek hi fanda tha boss...

Fail ko ikar nahi sakta hai aur first hum aana nahi chahte hain :D :D

Nice work u r doing... keep it up!!!
Cheers!!!

Rex Venom said...

"Stupid plants"? What did the plants do wrong?!
(Hee hee?)
Rock on!

Anjuli said...

I am really glad that you are sponsoring two girls!

Would love to do something like that some point in time in my life!

you made me proud!

Take care...

SambY said...

aneri masi......


u know... my dad was posted in kupawara.... me and my twin bro were delived in kupawra

SambY said...

kupawar is a beautiful place and there is hardly any tension there... yes life is hard.. the usual ruged terrain n all..but no concerns as far as war or terrorism....

--xh-- said...

next time whn the bug bites you, dont think much - just hit the highway...

aneri_masi said...

@ankur, yeah, I guess I should write to Mubeena. Maybe I will...soon. Padhai se farak padta hai re, specially in India, where jobs kam aur grads zyaada hain. And it makes a difference in living conditions! My previous kid who graduated got her BBA degree, to uski to family ki life ban gai. She is a laborer's kid, daily wages waale, and now she is an admin asst. in some good company. So me khush :)

aneri_masi said...

@rex venom, long story. They are an integral part of the saga of my life!

aneri_masi said...

@anjuli, thanks. you shld look it up then. It takes very little money to get started!

aneri_masi said...

@samby, yeah thats what the asha folks said abt the place. That Kupwara is nice, and they bring orphans from the war-torn areas over here.

aneri_masi said...

@xh, its not as simple as that anymore. not alone anymore you see!

Nirmal's Blog said...

oh man thats great u sponsoring students..

will do that in some part of my life ...too..

and take a chill..its all i can say..

Cinderella. said...

Glad for what you'red oing for the girls ,di.
Inspires me to get nearer to my dream of the same one day.

And dont worry, this too shall pass.

:)

τ ħ€ ĐάЎđяёάmёя said...

hmm
its nice that u r doing sumfink good ..
m proud of knowing you..

τ ħ€ ĐάЎđяёάmёя said...

waise aap unse mil sakte hai ..jinhe aap suport kar rahe ho?

SambY said...

haha ofcorse it is nice..hehehe i was born there...thts samby land.,... have scanned sum pics will upload...

aneri_masi said...

@nirmal, yeah, it feels good, try not to forget about it :)

@ella :)

@sourish, yeah, mil sakte hain. We can usually go to the institute that Asha is running and meet them there. But I have never met anyone. Had written a letter to a kid once, ussey zyaada interaction nahi kiya, don't know, don't feel like.

@samby, is your home in Kupwara, ke your parents were there only when you were born?

Neeku said...

Good Work Aneri_masi :)Thats very thoughtful of you!

τ ħ€ ĐάЎđяёάmёя said...

di

par achha hai ...main jab kamane lagunga toh mai bhi aise hi charity karoonga :|

abhi toh mujhe hi charity ki jaroorat hai..papa mommy paise bhejna band kar diye hai :|

lol

but sumtime i feel that m lucky ki mujhe kahi war zone ya garreb k ghar nhi paisa kiya bhagwan ne..life there is hell difficult :|

Ankur said...

gussa shant hua aapka???

kaise ho aap dono ab?

Cheers!!!

aneri_masi said...

@sourish, yep, exactly! We have SO much to be thankful for, so much we take for granted!

@ankur, gussa nahi yaar, frustration, mujh se nahi raha jaata 4 diwar mein kaid, i need to get out and see new things. we're both still a little sick, me coughing, and him weak :(

Pri said...

ok sticking to the pact, just congratulate the two kiddos on my behalf...and tell the other one to buck up a bit! :)

tell me when uve cooled off...wanna talk and talk and talk ;)

aneri_masi said...

@Pri, abhi thik hai :) All cooled down!

vEENs said...

Hello Madam,

abhi sab theek hai ya nahin?


mujhe se Manager ne kaha planned leave for May le le...maine kaha theek hai... bikul khush socha Deeps aor Vibs ke saath jaaooongi...etc lekin wen i told mom...she was like ...hw can u go w/o us...hw unfair is that
we never go anywhere w/o u ...etc... and what will sister think ...she has xams that time.. aur ladai as usual :-/

abhi leave nahin lee... bilkul waste :0/

paise bhi nahin hai u knww ..:((

sunn dnt worry ... \

mom kehti ha ki friends ke saath jaan jaroori nahin hai...shaadi ke baad jaan a husband ke saath.... tu bata kya yeh rig hai ? :((


phir yaar choddo kya rant kar ke...deemag waise hi gne case :-/

waise u r doing such a good thing :))


keep it up ok

lov :))

[ thodi busy thi office work ki wajah se isiliye late ok] take care!

Cinderella. said...

YOu better now di ?

Gussa shaant hua aapka ?

Or do you need a sweet little sunggly hug to make it better ?

Ankur said...

kyaa yaar dhyan rakho... dawai li kya??? aur doctor ko dikhaya ya OTC drugs se hi kam chal raha hai.. call some doc at home yaar...

Take Care :)

Cheers!!!

Mez said...

I too suffer from same old routine boredom. Ask me..i will testify.

Those gals bit i wanna say...God Bless you :)

ceedy said...

mood ki aisi ki taise - just proud of what you are doing :)

i do it some other ways.....was aware of this - heard of kiva?

hope you are fine now

aneri_masi said...

@veensie, missed ya!!! I say it is VERY important to go with your friends! Yeh din waapis nahi aayenge, and you'll be stuck with that hubby for life, uske saath to jaana hi hai (agar woh interested raha tow, if not, all you will do is write frustrated posts about it!) So PLEASE go yaar, main haath jodti hoon, JAAA!!!

@ankur, he is very stubborn, nahi jaata doctor ke paas. Uska koi ilaaj nahi hai :(

@ella, mood is good, but will still take that hug :)

@mez, yaar, chal bhaag ke jaate hain somewhere!

@ceedy, I think you had mentioned kiva somewhere before to I had visited the site that time. Have farithi joish. I also try to "click" as often as possible on http://www.thehungersite.com and play word games at http://www.freerice.com

ceedy said...

Thanks for the links will check them out - keep up the good work :)

Neeku said...

I There is another organization ... i am sort of writing a Grant for them...

http://www.smilefoundationindia.org/

they help kids from slums... and provide them atleast basic primary education...

Thought I would share with you... since you have been doing charity work.

Have a good day ahead!

Anvita said...

aweeeeeeeeeee, i so apprecite u supporting these gals......good cause babe.....

cheer up dear.....raat gayi baat gayi....its a new day, its a new beginning...

*hugs* :)

vEENs said...

Yaar...this time...toh now i cant tae lekin i will i willl GO!!!!!!!!!!!

pakka...soch liya hai :)

and did I tell you i ma really PROUD of YOU!

aneri_masi said...

@neeku, thanks! I'll definitely look them up.

@anvita, thanks for the cheer :) Am doing good now! And you're right, brand new beautiful day :)

@veens, _stomping-my-foot_, don't go all disappointing me now :( Kyu nahi ja rahi?

Mez said...

Aree u toh will njoi wid ur hubby..socho mera akele kya hoga :(

aneri_masi said...

@mez, no no, we'll leave him at home, to tend to his garden and his house and whatever it is that binds him to it! And we'll go see the pyramids of the Pharaohs!

aneri_masi said...
This comment has been removed by the author.
vEENs said...

nahin re... ab May 15th tak can't take any leave :-/

But after that of courzz!

Now i m feeling fine !

Aur kya haal chaal hai?